Last Free-Write Friday entry for the seventh grade =( See you guys in August!
     
     Samantha actually committed suicide on February 28th, not May 1st. When they were preparing her body for her funeral, they found out she was two months pregnant and she had also overdosed on acetaminophen before she cut. In honor of the month we've been without Sammie, I had a paper signed by a lot of people, who also let me write "LOVE" on their wrists. 
     A special shout-out to Luisa, Mazaya, Dariana, Ismael, Fatima, Laura, Tatum, Kristen, Mrs. Moon, Cattabrie, Vannessa A., Vannessa M., Glenda, Patty, Robert, Joie, Aimee, Summer, Kellyn, Sylvya, Katie, Brooklyn, Daniel, Darren, Jose, Karla, Raven, Kimberly, Diana, Camille, Citali, and Ka. They all let me write on their wrists and signed a paper with sweet comments that I plan to send to Sammie's family in Nevada. I want them to know that I haven't forgotten about her and that all these people care about Sammie, all 32 of them! If you signed and didn't see your name here, want to sign, or would like to get "LOVE" on your wrist, just comment, and I'll reply as fast as possible!

     I'm still grieving over Sammie. I emailed her parents to try to tell them that I'm here for them and I miss her, too. Sammie was a wonderful girl. I wish she didn't do what she did. A lot of people cared about her, even if they didn't say it often. About a few days before she died, she made me promise I'd never cut myself again. I did the day before I talked to her, and she found out. I didn't even think that she was planning it. After she died, I told myself there was no way I'd ever break my promise to her. I promise I'll never cut again. 
     I'm sticking with my promise because of how much she meant to me. I was having major suicidal thoughts after I got the news. Talking to people and being able to get those feelings out was great. Everyday - all day - I'd just sit on my bed in the corner and cry. I couldn't cope without her. Her funeral was in Nevada, so I couldn't go. She was my best friend. She was there when I needed her. Now she's gone. I'll never forget her, and she'll always be in my heart. I have a guardian angel now; now I feel safe. 
                                            I love you, Sammie. 
                                              Never forget it.

In remembrance of Sammie who took her life on April 30, 2013, write love on your wrist and wear yellow on September 10th. We need to take a stand against bullying. R.I.P Sammie </3

     On Tuesday, April 30, 2013 my best friend Sammie (not her name - nickname) committed suicide. Guess why? Bullies. Sammie was my best friend. She understood me. Sammie was the most beautiful girl in the world. She had perfect, loose curly hair, deep brown eyes, amazing dimples - everything about her was perfect. I loved her like my sister. She was the best thing that ever happened to me. 
     Sammie used to go to Edison High, but moved to Nevada at the end of February. She was bullied at Edison, but she thought moving to Nevada with her dad, who got a job promotion, would make everything better. Samantha was perfect, but she was made fun of because she was very short (5'2") and only weighed 90 pounds. She was anorexic, also. Sammie was going through a very rough time. 
     On Wednesday, May 1, 2013, I called her house. Her mother answered the phone, which was odd because Sammie usually answers to me. I asked her mom if I could speak to Sammie, but the line went quiet. I knew she was there, because I could hear a sniffling in the background. She told me Sammie committed suicide on Tuesday. I was too late. 
     Sammie got bullied very bad that day. She ran home and locked herself in her bedroom. 
     I don't know where she got it, but she had an industrial grade razor. She was a cutter in the past, but recovered from it when I recovered from mine. She had cut so deep into her wrist that she was almost halfway through. Then, she hit an artery. Her parents found her door locked. Her dad had to turn the house upside-down to find the key. When they came in, Sammie had died from blood loss. There was nothing her parents could do. 
     Sammie, I love you. I miss you so much. It hurt so bad to lose you, but that proves God only takes the best. Sure, you're gone, but I'll always have you with me. Rest in peace Sammie.

     So, about last weekend, my mom, dad, and grandma all got the new Samsung Galaxy S3. I felt so left out because I've been wanting a phone for years. Honestly, I was just tired, so I was sitting on the couch supporting my head with my hand. Apparently, it looked like I was pouting. As I was dozing off, I heard my grandma point it out that I was "pouting" and went next door to her house (we were at my great-grandma's house at the time). She came back with a Samsung Galaxy S2. It was her old phone, but I didn't care. I've been obsessed with it since then.
     Me, being bored at home in my room, started browsing through Facebook when I came across a picture of my 14-year-old cousin, Violet. She had long, black hair and the most gorgeous blue eyes. I don't remember her eyes being that color. One comment said, "I love that app!", so I searched it in the Android market and I found it!
     It is called NiceEyes. I took pictures of my family, but mostly me. I gave us amazing eyes that I couldn't believe were even on my face. I love it so much. No one at school will let me do them, which is a bummer. I just like changing up my look. Like, a lot. More than I should. 
     I love my new phone! I'm looking for cases, so if anyone has an old case, I'll buy it off you. I want either an owl one or a 3D Stich (from Lilo and Stitch) case. They're so cute! So far, I've only found it for the iPhone. I hate iPhones. They're too fragile. I'm not very gentle....